thoughts

I forgot to say it required two surgical biopsies to confirm my cancer. Anyways. This whole experience is awful but is teaching me so much and im actually learning it almost like when you learn to read. You have to experience it and practice to attain things; such as peace, love, self love, happiness, selflessness...the list goes on. I'll try and think more about those kinds of things in detail when I think of them because unforunetely I get alot of alone time to think. To not ever take your health and your life for granted is obviously something huge im learning. everyday is a blessing and the Lord could take you away in an instant. Il try and remain from using cliches because we can all say them but to really mean them and carry them out in your life is a different story. Now just because im learning all this doesn't mean ive applied it yet. No one is perfect, especially not me. I'm used to being pretty much a bossy grouch. Im constantly getting blood drawn and shots every single day, not to mention chemo and surgies and tests.......its hard to keep from going crazy. I guess what Im trying to say is from here on out I cant live like I used to become ive experienced the passion in what life has to offer and the freedom you have when you are healthy. one love